| | Holiday yesterday! I like. :D Haha, holidays always provide a very rare opportunity to break free from the dreary conundrum of tutorials, tests, lessons. I actually like doing tutorials though; it's comforting that I take pride and pleasure in my work nowadays. I actually enjoy the subjects I take, and slowly unlocking the challenges they present. I know at this juncture, people would probably roll their eyes unceremoniously and judiciously attribute this to something we so dearly recognise as "mugger-ism". But surprisingly enough, it isn't even about homework and being remotely on par with everyone (or ahead), it's actually the joy of learning. That sounds so corny and preachy, but I'm glad I'm starting to like my subjects and learning about all that we have to learn. Except sometimes I feel it's quite pointless sitting through lectures. of which I can't really comprehend. I find it easier if we digest first, and then teachers go through again, and answer our questions. Okay, I know we are supposed to read our stuff beforehand, but honestly, in contemporary circumstances, who on earth has the time?
Had pt on thursday. True to her word, shuyi, our evil captain (xp) made us run 4km. For someone who never ever runs voluntarily, and dreads 2.4 like hydrocarbons repel water, I actually accomplished such a miraculous feat. And I am so proud of myself! I keep telling anyone who will listen to me. Haha. Had fun laughing with meiyan and the rest of the team over nothing. Hehe. Then watched the guys play tennis for a while. Gosh, some people play quite obnoxiously. And someone (forgot his name again) actually had to cheek to hit a ball against the fence where we were standing and exasperatedly say, "What are you doing?" Erm, catching fireflies, while eating marshmellows over the drain and singing in the rain? Of course we were watching you play tennis; do you have to be so rude?! Goodness. Okay, I wasn't very annoyed, just a little put off by another encounter with the opposite species, and their inherently not-so-friendly nature. I think poo and I are quite disillusioned now. But poo, take heart in that I'll always be there for you! And I know it's quite pointless in me saying this, because if you could you probably would have done this by now, but just try to ignore. Some people just really aren't worth fretting about, and this is one of the times when you have to dig deep, and find it in yourself and forget. At the same time, I think friendships are something dear, and something we should hold onto, so don't let go (yet). <3 Ohohoh, saw Carol and Lainney on Thursday before pt! Rj came over for touch rug match. Was quite startled; so startled in fact, that I forgot to hug them, haha. Kinduv miss them in separate ways. I miss going to Carol's house on Saturdays and just doing and talking about everything under the sun, without having to worry about anything at all. That was when there was no ambitions, no politics, no gossip/bitching. And I miss lainney and apey and tll! And ms see, and taboo (!!!) We should really, really meet up, and do something fun together. Maybe they could teach me the rationale behind touch rug! Rawr, miss them.
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I wish people would stop judging others based on appearances. 琼楼玉宇，高处不胜寒. Some people think they understand, but they haven't even gotten down to skimming the surface, They think they're all-knowledgeable, when it doesn't even occur to them that they don't know anything. It's so much more complicated and precarious, beyond their own experiences. I think I shouldn't blame anyone, just because I've learnt to cope so well, and keep a front to everything, but honestly, you have no right, at all, to judge, and make fallacious inductions. Just because I look like I won't mind, doesn't mean I am incapable of defending my position and others attacking me. So much for being good natured. I think, NJ exposed me to less desirable characteristics; it's not that people are mean; it's just that they're not nice. So much so that I hardly do anything for anyone anymore, without thinking first of what it means to me, and what benefit it could bring me. I think when I was younger, I was so much more willing to be "stupid" and volunteer to do things for people. But people laugh at you for being childike, innocent, gullible, and I guess they don't mean anything by it, but eventually they rub off you and and you lose the sheen you once had.
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